Thursday, January 28, 2010

Manifesting at its best!!

Seems like everyday this past week has been a day full of miracles. As I get more clear about what I want, the faster and easier things seem to come to me. I think I'm getting the hang of this asking thing and then not worrying about "how" I will get it. I just got accepted into the Sati Leader Training Work Study Program. It kicks off in two weeks and I am so happy to a part of it. Ever since I joined the very first Sati challenge in Feb of last year, I knew that this was a practice that I wanted to help grow. It had re-awakened my spirituality and provided a perfect synergy between my heart, body and mind. In September of last year, I was featured in the SatiLife newsletter as Warrior of the Month where I was able to share some of the benefits I experienced as a result of doing the intenSati. And now a year after that first challenge, I will start my training so that I can help grow the reach of this movement.

For a long time I put off doing the training because I didn't have the money to pay for it. I had all the reasons as to why I couldn't. And so I didn't. But in class, I continued to put my all in it. I would be in the first row, doing the moves harder than most, talking louder than most, and smiling more than most. I pretended to be one of the Leaders. Ever hear of "fake it till you make it"? Well I did! And day by day, little by little more and more people would ask me if I was a leader and upon saying no, they would tell me that I should be one.

Three weeks ago one of the leaders, Rachel told me after class that I should apply for the Feb training. She was insistent that I do it because she said I was already one. I went home that night and thought about how that made me feel. She was right. I AM A LEADER. And in keeping with the theme for the month, I said to myself, "It's 2010, IF NOT NOW WHEN??

So two days later, I went online and filled out the application for the Work/Study program and sent it in with full confidence that what I want is on its way! I requested the week of Feb 15-19 off from work and told my boss that I was going to be in Leader Training even though I did not have any sign or confirmation that I got into the program. And I knew that getting into the program was the ONLY way I could do the training. But I told myself and anyone who asked, that I will be in that Feb training group, no matter what!

I got my confirmation email from Dyan 4 days ago that I was accepted into the work/study program. It felt like I hit the lotto! Or if you were around me at that moment, you would've thought I hit the lotto!!!

So this is what it feels like to MANIFEST something. First know what you want. Speak about it. Feel what it's like to have it. Act as if you already have it. Do not worry about HOW you will get it. Trust that it is already done. And allow it to happen!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Allow myself to chill and just be...

Slept in today after a nice evening out last night with the girls. Woke up this morning and was feeling inspired. Started reading pages from an activity book called, The Artist's Way. My entries were dated Sept-Dec 1997. Remembered how much I discovered about myself at that time when I committed to engaging in self-introspection. After 13 years, I am feeling great that I am back on the spiritual path that I started many years ago. What a gift to have had that time. What a gift to have held on to that book. What a gift that I picked it up today after such a long time. What a gift!

I wrote a letter of appreciation to the person who hurt me the most and thanked him for all the beautiful lessons I learned as a result of the heartache I experienced from our 16 year journey together. Then I forgave him. And I released him.

Then, I created a list of character traits I would want in my next roommate. I have a beautiful space to share and I want to create an opportunity for me to earn extra income.

Then, I created a list of the things I wish for as far as my ideal match. This time I did not censor myself. No guilt. Just fun, playful wishes any person can have about their perfect partner. Except this is specific to me and my ideal match. I will know him when I find him. And he will know me.

Then, I had an eye opening liberating call with my nutritionist who reminded me that I don't have to be on the move all of the time. That in order to create Balance, I must allow myself to chill and just be...And feel great about it! She reminded me not to feel guilty on days that I don't "do" much. She reminded me that sitting still, writing in my journal, meditating is just as important as doing all the physical activities that I engage in the rest of the week.

So one day at a time, this year is mine...

Thursday, January 7, 2010

New Year

So glad to finally be writing my first post. All week I had agonized over what to call my blog. I wanted to write about setting goals and reaching them. But that's not all. I will write about enjoying the journey, NOW! I often observe how people I know, myself included set goals and then obsess over reaching them without appreciating the process it takes to get there. And just as often, I've witnessed so many give up on their goals because it was too difficult or too challenging. Some just lose interest or don't have the focus or the discipline. Well, we are seven days into the year 2010, and there are countless of us out here in the midst of setting our goals for this new year. One thing I can bet is that we are all determined to make this a better year than the last. So this blog is dedicated to everyone who wants to improve their lives, one goal at a time while enjoying now, no matter what.