Honoring My Worth: An Ongoing Journey

I just finished watching a video Know~ING Your Worth by Gabrielle Bernstein, author of the book ADD MORE ing TO YOUR LIFE: A Hip Guide to Happiness.  It was perfect timing for me to see it! I just had my review at work a couple of weeks ago and it was my best one yet! And I did get the maximum raise.  Ironically it was the smallest amount I've ever gotten because of the state of the economy. I work for a retailer in NYC and have definitely felt the effects of the recession. So I didn't negotiate for a higher raise this time, even though I have in the past. But it is clear to me that I am exceeding expectations and am very much worth more than what I got monetarily.  I truly love the work that I do and the people I work with.  I have been there for 12 years and have grown and developed into who I am today, in huge part due to the wonderfully supportive environment that my career provides.  I am a store manager by job title.  In truth, I am a spiritual leader and I coach people on how to lead happier lives by empowering them to be the cause, and not the effect of their circumstances.  I lead commissioned sales people who successfully meet and exceed their goals by nurturing meaningful relationships with their customers.  I lead customer service professionals who make it their mission to provide care and immediate comfort when things don't go as planned.  I lead a team of managers who are committed to giving their best to the store and rely on me for guidance and mentor-ship.  I teach them how to lead from their hearts, from a place of inspiration.  As a result, our store morale is at an all time high.  And for me, well I get a lot of fulfillment watching them realize their dreams and experience success. 

However, since my review there have been moments when I have felt resentful about my raise.  And then I shift my thoughts by telling myself that it's ok.   And when I do this I'm not so sure I am honoring my worth.  I'm not sure that I am not just playing small and letting fear or doubt get in the way...But for now, I release this thought.  

On another note, I have started to earn money doing something else that I truly love and enjoy outside of my full time job.  I am helping others feel better about their lives, their bodies, their health.  I have recently started teaching intenSati classes in NYC and I am loving it! And I am committed to this practice and to my students.  I got my certification back in February, and it took some time, but I finally got over the fear of not being good enough (again questioning my worth) to start teaching and I now have a regular teaching schedule which I hope to add to real soon.  Already I am seeing how this practice is helping people shift their thoughts and their beliefs about themselves in order to know their worth and own it.  I see my students taking action from a place of love versus worry or fear.  It really, really works!  My life changed with this practice and I want more than anything to share this with other people.  And this is the reason I wanted to start teaching in the first place.  And according to Abraham in the book Money, and the Law of Attraction: Learning to Attract Wealth, Health, and Happiness "There is no better way to earn money than to do the things that you love to do.  Money can flow into your experience through endless avenues."

Watching Gabrielle's video (by the way, Gabrielle is also a certified intenSati leader) today reminded me that I too, still have a lot of work to do regarding knowing my worth, and that it is an ongoing journey.

When we don't connect with ourselves and to the power within us, it is easy to allow fear, doubt, and worry to take over.  And that is when we justify playing small, or staying in our current situations even when we know and feel that there is something better out there.  But by bringing Sati or awareness to our thoughts, by being mindful of our emotions we are better able to connect to the Love that is within, and only then are we able to honor the greatness that is us.
  
If you are in NYC, join intenSati creator Patricia Moreno Friday, May 7th 6:30PM at the TSalon in NYC as she discusses How to Honor Yourself in order to live a life you love in a body you love.  Patricia is the author of the book The IntenSati Method: The Seven Secret Principles to Thinner Peace


If you are a woman, and know other women who want to know more about Know~ING Your Worth, join Gabrielle's website www.herfuture.com for more on this conversation.