I'm In-Love Now

Enjoying the snow (Feb 2011)

Remember when I wrote back on New Year's Eve that I went on my first date of 2010?  Well, turned out I didn't have to go out with anyone else!  He came exactly as I ordered:)  I now know the value of doing visualizations.  You imagine in great detail what you want in order to create the feeling of already having or experiencing your desires.  It is this feeling that is real.  It is the practice of creating, imagining, dreaming, believing that allowed me to begin to trust my intuition.  And because I trusted myself and had faith that it was all working out no matter what, I entered this new territory with courage, compassion and allowed for the kind of connection that occurs naturally. 

I did want to share with you the first valuable lesson this year brought me.  I learned that as soon as I decided I was ready for the love of my life to show up and I wasn't willing to settle for anything less, he showed up!  In actuality, we showed up for each other!  I say this because he has told me that he too was ready, that he too was waiting for me, and that he too was not willing to settle for less!  So the lesson is, DECIDE!  If you want something to change, BE IT!

What I want to convey here is that he didn't show up and then I believed it.  I believed first, and then he showed up!  I shifted myself first, then I was able to open up and be available so that when he came along, I was able to recognize him.  Last year was a year dedicated to shifting my beliefs and cultivating new truths.  With regard to love and relationships, the "old" me was always waiting for the other shoe to drop, waiting for the other person to figure out I wasn't that special and eventually he would tire of me, etc.  Hey, I had a track record to prove it!  History doesn't lie!  Ugh!  Yes isn't it all silly?  It wasn't until I put it on paper, said it out loud, shared it with others, that I was able to hear and feel the absurdity of my old belief patterns.  It became apparent that it was my own limited thinking that was keeping me stuck in an unwanted cycle. 

Turks and Caicos (May 2011)

The great news is that it's never too late to replace old thinking patterns with new ones!  So that's what I did.  I created a new belief system for myself and practiced new thoughts.  The "new" me believes I deserve to be happy, to be loved, and to be honored!  And when the old patterns of thought creep in (35 years in the making don't disappear overnight), I close my eyes, take a couple of deep breaths and remind myself that I deserve to be happy, to be loved, and to be honored.  When I first began taking intenSati classes 3 years ago, hearing these words made me giggle with embarrassment.   I couldn't say them.  I didn't believe them.  Today, these new thoughts are louder and more dominant.  And I think and say them out loud with conviction, with confidence, and with gumption! 

Last year I was determined to dream BIG!  I committed to leading from the HEART which meant telling the truth about and expressing how I FEEL!  I practiced the belief that I WILL FIND LOVE and CULTIVATE ABUNDANCE!  I chose to love myself and honor my worth!  As a result, I fell in love with me.  And that is where it all began.  

I used to hear people say that once you meet the perfect one for you, you just know it!  That it was something you just felt and knew to be true and real.  I never believed it.  Until now.

What are you willing to believe?  What do you stand to lose if you don't?