I'm In-Love Now

Enjoying the snow (Feb 2011)

Remember when I wrote back on New Year's Eve that I went on my first date of 2010?  Well, turned out I didn't have to go out with anyone else!  He came exactly as I ordered:)  I now know the value of doing visualizations.  You imagine in great detail what you want in order to create the feeling of already having or experiencing your desires.  It is this feeling that is real.  It is the practice of creating, imagining, dreaming, believing that allowed me to begin to trust my intuition.  And because I trusted myself and had faith that it was all working out no matter what, I entered this new territory with courage, compassion and allowed for the kind of connection that occurs naturally. 

I did want to share with you the first valuable lesson this year brought me.  I learned that as soon as I decided I was ready for the love of my life to show up and I wasn't willing to settle for anything less, he showed up!  In actuality, we showed up for each other!  I say this because he has told me that he too was ready, that he too was waiting for me, and that he too was not willing to settle for less!  So the lesson is, DECIDE!  If you want something to change, BE IT!

What I want to convey here is that he didn't show up and then I believed it.  I believed first, and then he showed up!  I shifted myself first, then I was able to open up and be available so that when he came along, I was able to recognize him.  Last year was a year dedicated to shifting my beliefs and cultivating new truths.  With regard to love and relationships, the "old" me was always waiting for the other shoe to drop, waiting for the other person to figure out I wasn't that special and eventually he would tire of me, etc.  Hey, I had a track record to prove it!  History doesn't lie!  Ugh!  Yes isn't it all silly?  It wasn't until I put it on paper, said it out loud, shared it with others, that I was able to hear and feel the absurdity of my old belief patterns.  It became apparent that it was my own limited thinking that was keeping me stuck in an unwanted cycle. 

Turks and Caicos (May 2011)

The great news is that it's never too late to replace old thinking patterns with new ones!  So that's what I did.  I created a new belief system for myself and practiced new thoughts.  The "new" me believes I deserve to be happy, to be loved, and to be honored!  And when the old patterns of thought creep in (35 years in the making don't disappear overnight), I close my eyes, take a couple of deep breaths and remind myself that I deserve to be happy, to be loved, and to be honored.  When I first began taking intenSati classes 3 years ago, hearing these words made me giggle with embarrassment.   I couldn't say them.  I didn't believe them.  Today, these new thoughts are louder and more dominant.  And I think and say them out loud with conviction, with confidence, and with gumption! 

Last year I was determined to dream BIG!  I committed to leading from the HEART which meant telling the truth about and expressing how I FEEL!  I practiced the belief that I WILL FIND LOVE and CULTIVATE ABUNDANCE!  I chose to love myself and honor my worth!  As a result, I fell in love with me.  And that is where it all began.  

I used to hear people say that once you meet the perfect one for you, you just know it!  That it was something you just felt and knew to be true and real.  I never believed it.  Until now.

What are you willing to believe?  What do you stand to lose if you don't?

Feeling Lighthearted

I can't stop smiling right now.  I've been reading the book The Astonishing Power of Emotions: Let Your Feelings Be Your Guide and just came upon Example 13, titled I Cannot Find a Mate.  As I've shared before, I declared 2010 as the year I will allow myself to be in my ideal romantic relationship.  I had been plagued by old doubts, worries, hurts and had really blocked myself from moving forward in the direction of my dreams when it came to this area of my life.  As a result, I had set up my reality to match my doubtful and negative vibrations and produced the opposite of my desires.   Yes, I maintained a one-sided, poor excuse of a relationship set up on convenience and non-commitment.  And kept it going for far too long!  But I let that go with 2009 and I forgive myself!  (Exhale)

Over the course of the last year and a half, I have and continue to develop the focus to reach for better feeling thoughts with the practice of intenSati.  And I am getting better and better at it.  Early this year I decided that no matter what, I will go forward in the direction of my dreams and manifest new and different realities!  In this book, better feeling thoughts are referred to as downstream thoughts.  The opposite of that is upstream.  I'm not a very good swimmer, yet I know that swimming downstream takes less energy and effort on my part and can get me to my desired destination much quicker.  

I used to only think upstream thoughts, such as "It's hard to find the right person." 

And right now at this moment, I am smiling because while reading this section of the book I feel really good!  I am now aligned with downstream, better feeling thoughts!  Thoughts such as, "I'm enjoying exploring my options," or "My picture of my life partner has grown out of the relationships I've had over the years," or "Every experience in life adds to the evolution of our ideas and desires."  Yes!  I can't stop smiling:)  What I want is here in great abundance!

In my intenSati class this month, we affirm our dreams and focus on our desires instead of worrying or complaining about what we don't yet have.  Yes!  What I want is on its way and it's coming to me in greater amounts than I can ever imagine!  I have faith and trust that it is here now.  And all I have to do is allow....I feel lighthearted and grateful.  (Exhale)

Carpe Diem:
YES! I will seize the day 
I will act now 
Everyday is a new day
My life is passing and it will not wait
I am ready to stop worrying 
I am willing to stop worrying
I am determined to stop worrying
Right now
I will challenge myself
To reach for something better
No worries no regrets 
Ah! I feel much better
I am free now
Carpe diem!

All I need
Is to discipline
My attention
And be grateful
That I have
The power
To choose

See you in class Wednesday and Thursday 6PM at Ripley Grier Studios on 520 8th Avenue in NYC.

With Love,
Triccia